Tuesday, October 23, 1984 (age 13)

I’m giving up an Tyler - he hates me and I really don’t blame him. Oh, why? I love him so much and he can’t stand me. Why does this always happen to me? It’s just not fair. I should be shot. I have NO ONE.  Kelsey’s got someone, Lacey had someone and Nadine’s almost got one while I sit in agony knowing Tyler hates my fucking shitting GUTS.  Life is so cruel! I want to kill myself so bad so I’ll be put out of this mess. Someone please help me!